So, woke up this morning. Had breakfast. Took a shower. Threw up. Went to Doctor.
Being investigated for a possible infection. Or could be the vomiting bug that’s going around.
She is sending a referral to psych for me, just in case this antenatal depression turns into post natal depression (PND). Its not guaranteed that it will, but it is, of course, possible. This way I will be on psych’s radar again and will get treated fairly quickly if it becomes an issue.
She also said ‘it is better to bottle feed and be functioning on drugs than to insist on breast feeding and not functioning at all.’ She has a point.
I really want to breast feed, it is so good for baby and for me. But if I can’t, I can’t. I will come to terms with that, sometime in the next 15 weeks.
So I’m off work for at least the next week, until the possibility of infection is cleared up one way or another. If I do have an infection, then I may be off another week, not because I’ll be contagious, but because I’ll need to take care of myself and the baby.
I’m sure work is thrilled. I know I would be, if I was them…