Happy Thanksgiving United States!!!

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We too are having the turkey dinner today.  I try to do it every year.

Simon crushed my hopes today when he said, as he was heading to work “so what are you doing today besides clearing the dining table so you can set it for Thanksgiving Dinner?!?”  I was all “That was going to be a surprise!!” and he was all “But you do it every year!”  Smartass.

I did run to the shops this morning upon discovering that Debenhem’s was having 50% off quilts and duvets.  We’ve needed a new one for ages (ours was a wedding present, so 4 years old!) and so I bought a new duvet and cover for the combined price of…£60!!  Usually *just* the duvet is about £60.

Hi, my name is Robyn and I am addicted to duvet covers.  This is our third.  And yes, I change them regularly. 🙂

Still feeling fairly crap.  Not sleeping well and nausea at odd moments.  Rest of today I will relax (yes, and set the table for dinner!) and put my feet up.

Two Doctors. Two Days. One Baby.

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Wow, that was dramatic. 🙂

So had a metabolic appointment yesterday.  That means with my diabetes team!  Blood drawn, spoke to Endocrinologist, stuff like that there.  Endo is very pleased with my numbers.  Still a bit high in the morning, so increased my insulin.  Mornings are the hardest to get down for almost everyone, due to what is known as the Dawn Effect or Dawn Phenomenon.   For some reason, blood glucose levels go up with the dawn.  Some people say it is to wake the body up to get the day started, but no one knows for sure why it happens.  But it is not unusual that my highest insulin dose is before breakfast.

They also did a second scan on me yesterday.  Baby now measures 9+1, with a margin of error of +/- 1 week, so I am around 10 weeks.  I will have a real dating scan in 3 weeks.  But everything looks great, heartbeat nice and strong, and being such a wiggle worm that the US operator had a hard time getting a measurement on her!  Perhaps there is a dancer or footballer in our future!

And today I saw my GP about the depression and general feelings of OMG!ICK!  She said that this is the one time in my life I am allowed to let myself be depressed.  To take it easy.  Keep eating well, taking walks, but mostly just relaxing.  So I am off work for at least another whole week after this one.  With strict orders to sit around and do very little!  My kind of prescription!

In other news, I had sort of an odd moment yesterday.  I took the bus up to the hospital and this couple and their two children got on as well. One was about 2 and in a pushchair and the other was literally a babe in arms.  Then, coming home on the bus, the same couple was there as well.  But with only one child.

So I have been wondering what happened to the other child.  I would think that if the poor little thing had to be left at the hospital, mom and dad would have stayed longer with  him.  Or at least one of them would have.  And neither parent looked worried or anything.

This is one of those things that will remain a mystery.  Gonna make  me nuts.  Any theories?

LOL at Eve’s Comment Yesterday

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Yes, tomorrow the embryo ‘levels up’ to fetus.  I love my geeky friends.

Feel like total crap today.  Headache.  Nausea.  Depression.  I’m still referring to it as the trifecta of pregnancy.

And the inabilty to feel full.  I may have to have lunch in about 10 minutes, and its only 11:00am!

Off to Diabetic Antenatal Clinic today. I imagine there will be blood drawn and doctors talked to.  Fun fun fun.

So, The Weekend Was Okay

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Did make it out of the flat, only to nearly hurl in Tesco.  Yeah, that was fun.

Then had a hypo in the middle of Eason and had to scarf a bag of crisps.  Salt and Vinegear, for the record.

Then we did head over to the Chirstmas Market at City Hall.  Our favorite French baker wasn’t there, but another one was and I got to have two bites of Simon’s really yummy chocolate tart.  And it was only £2!  We were both amazed.  A tart like that in a restaurant would be like £7!  May have to go back for some more.

Then went to Quantum of Solace and out to dinner yesterday.  No hypos or hurling, but did almost fall asleep during the movie and was the Queen of Burps.

Still feeling really depressed.  And Simon says I look preggers from the side.  Thanks Simon.

And, yes, I am making Thanksgiving Dinner on Thursday.  Turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, brussel sprouts.  Chocolate Ice Cream for dessert.  Yeah, can’t get pumpkin pie here in Belfast.  That’s okay, though.  I’m not a huge fan of pumpkin pie.

So tomorrow is Diabetes/Antenatal clinic and then Wednesday I see my GP and hopefully can get something for the drepssion, although I doubt it due to the fetus.  Hey, as of Wednesday, it is indeed a fetus!

Going To Try and Leave the Flat Today

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First time in nearly a week.  Simon and I are going to go here. And do the regular Saturday shopping.

Tomorrow we are going to go see Quatum of Solace (I will *never* understand that name).  And then out to dinner at Chilis, which has just opened in Victoria Square, although their UK website seems to be redirecting to the US one.  It will be nice to eat at an American restaurant.

Still feeling horrible, but at least I won’t have to really talk to people.  Simon can do that part for me.

So Frustrated

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So one of the things I have to do, because I’m on insulin and its new to me, is call the Diabetes Clinic every day to go over my numbers with them.

And we can’t seem to get my levels where they want them.  They are much better than they were, but my fasting numbers are still too high.  It is very frustrating.  I know I am eating what I am suppose to eat, i.e. within my carb range, but my insulin resistance seems to be increasing.

That isn’t unusual for a Diabetic Mommy to have this problem.  But its just one more thing to worry about.

I’m also a little worried because I am not gaining any weight.  Now there’s a worry I never thought I’d have!  I know part of it is that I was overweight to begin with and with my strict diet I am eating better than I ever have, but it is still a worry.  All the books say not to sweat it, that many women don’t gain weight their first trimester, but its just another thing to worry about.

So today’s key words are worried and depressed.  Maybe I should go take a bath.

Man, this mommy stuff is hard!  But, I am sure, will all be worth it in the end.

Last Night I Had My First Real Hypo

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i.e. low blood glucose.  I went to bed with it at 6.5 woke up two hours later, heart palpatations, feeling dizzy and sweating at a level of 3.2.  Simon was still awake so I went into the front room and he helped me drink some juice and eat some pretzels.  Yeah, was not fun.

Still feeling very flat and empty.  Haven’t been to work in quite awhile.  Don’t know when I am going back.  Just basically sitting in the flat and playing online and playing video games.

I do manage to cook dinner every night and keep myself clean, so it could be much much worse.  Not really sure what my doctor will be able to do.  Hopefully in 3 weeks I’ll feel fine, as antenatal depression seems to be a first trimester thing.  Nearly through that!

9 Weeks Today…

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So the blob is nearly 2cm and has hands and feet.  And eyelids!

Unfortunately, mommy has antenatal depression.  As you all know, I am a depressive anyway, and all these hormones are making me very depressed.  Can’t see my doctor until next week, so I’m trying to muddle through, but it is very hard.

This is what worries me the most about having this baby.  Becoming completely non-functional at some point.  I know it is actually a silly worry as I have never been so depressed that I didn’t at least eat and bathe myself, so I imagine I will be the same with a baby.  And I am hardly alone in this.  Simon is always wonderful when I am depressed.

But it is a worry.  And I know it is one my family shares.

We shall just have to wait and see how it works out.

I Remember, When My Sister in Law

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Was pregnant with her oldest daughter, my niece S, she called in to work one day asking if anyone had gotten the license plate of the truck that hit her.  When she returned to work, someone had drawn her a picture of a license plate with the word ‘baby’ as the plate number.

I wonder if she still has that and if she’d send it to me.  Because the same truck seems to have hit me yesterday and today.  Hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow, because I have a huge meeting on Friday to prepare for!

No one tells you how much pregnancy truly sucks.  You’re tired.  You ache.  You feel sick.  You pee all.the.time.  Add getting used to insulin and new Blood Glucose levels on top of that? Yeah, work just not happening today.

I’m thinking about writting a petition to the government.  I will propose that women get to start their maternity leave from the moment that little stick says pregnant and get to stay on it until the kid starts full time school.  At full pay.  With your job held until you want to come back.

Anyone want to sign my petition?

So, I’ve Been On Insulin for Nearly a Week

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and my levels are coming down to where they want them.  And I finally gained a pound, which I thought I might have, as I had to put two more pairs of trousers in the ‘wear after baby born’ pile.

I did have my first hypo (low blood sugar) Thursday night.  I was worried because my levels were within where they wanted them, but I felt horrible.  But when I spoke to the Diabetic nurse she said my body would get used to lower levels, and the next time it was at that level, I felt fine, so I guess she was right!

Other than the out of control Blood Glucose and slightly achy breasts, I don’t feel pregnant at all.  Well, I am weepy, which is annoying, but I am no more tired than usual (since I have not had a decent nights sleep in what feels like eons) and I don’t think I am running to the toilet any more than usual.  I’m really glad we saw the heartbeat this week, or I’d be really worried.

I am finding the insulin to not be that big of a deal.  I mean, I would love to be eating like the women on my pregnancy board, who are totally pigging on chocolate and cakes and crisps and such.  But other than that, I am not finding it hard.  I am actually surprised that people do find it to be hard.  But I guess that’s a personality thing.

As far as names go, Simon and I have only decided on one thing.  That it should be something easy to spell!  No weird spellings for us!  We both get annoyed enough with the ‘y’ in my first name and the 3 different ways to spell our surname!  So the name will be something easy.  We’re just not sure what that will be yet!