that my life would change.
I didn’t know, however, that my cupboards would change!
Before: – Look, pretty dishes, easily available if I had the fancy!!
After: – Look, bottles! Pretty dishes on top shelf! Really pretty dishes put away in sideboard!!
*sigh* Its the end of an era.
And I am so.very.happy about it!
Its a nice feeling.
Off to the shops today to buy Simon a birthday present (its next Tuesday, the 24th, in case you want to mark your calendars). He’ll be 35. Don’t tell him I told you.
Yes, I robbed the cradle. 🙂
Also going to hit a baby store I like, Pumpkin Patch as I’ve received an email from them saying clothes are buy one get one 50% off, so I’ll go see what they have! It appears to be on spring clothes, so maybe I’ll get some larger sizes for next spring.
And I’ll go to my favorite coffee shop for a decaf latte and a bagel.
Sounds like a good day all around to me.
Dear Baby
This has been another really hard week for mummy. Her depression has come back. And this makes her worry about you.
I mean, I will always worry about you, since you’re my baby. Its my job! And Daddy’s job! But I do worry about being able to take care of you when I feel bad.
And then I realize…even when I am at my worst, I take care of myself. I eat. I bathe. I wear clean clothes. So maybe, if mummy has a depressive episode after you’re here, we won’t go to the park. We’ll stay home instead and play on the floor. Or cuddle on the sofa. It’ll be fine. I promise.
Mummy had an odd occurance the other night, which ties into being worried about you. She and Daddy went to the movies and out to dinner. We then walked home, as we do, and it was after dark. It was only about 8:30, but for the first time in her life Mummy was nervous walking through City Centre after dark. Even with Daddy with her.
Now, Mummy has walked home, by herself, half drunk at 2am and never felt nervous. But with you in her tummy, she was nervous. She didn’t like feeling so vulnerable. But I guess I’ll have to get used to it. And I will.
So now, in your 26th week, you can hear things. Not just mummy’s heartbeat and blood but her and Daddy’s voice! You have kicked several times in reaction to Mummy’s voice and once or twice in reaction to Daddy’s. And Daddy felt you move! Good baby! Also, some people say you are sensitive and intelligent now. Not sure what good either of those things do you right now, but good for you if true!
You weight nearly 2 pounds and are about 9 inches long. And you have less to 100 days until you will be born.
I can.not.wait.
Love
Mummy
and now I’m not. Today I am totally nauseaous. And depressed. And just generally feeling BLAH!
Did go out yesterday and see Watchmen. It was pretty good, if very violent.
And my second foray into slow cooker use was successful! I made chicken caccatori. Was a bit watery, but very very tasty. We will be having that one again.
One other thing about meds and breastfeeding…I have tried almost every med known to man. The only one that works is Xanax. I cannot breastfeed while on it. Thank you for your help otherwise, everyone. I will give it a try without the meds, but if I need them, I need them. End of story.
Be in in about 6 weeks. But they recommend we not pick it up until just before baby arrives, as the 6 months warrantee starts the second it leaves the store! So we’ll probably wait until the first weekend in June to actually get it.
Simon finally felt the baby move yesterday.
I am feeling a bit better. Glad to have another week off to recover and see if it is an infection along with the AND.
Today we are off to see Watchmen and then go out to dinner. A real date with my husband!
Oh, and for the record…all delivery methods of Gaviscon are HORRENDOUS!!!
So, woke up this morning. Had breakfast. Took a shower. Threw up. Went to Doctor.
Being investigated for a possible infection. Or could be the vomiting bug that’s going around.
She is sending a referral to psych for me, just in case this antenatal depression turns into post natal depression (PND). Its not guaranteed that it will, but it is, of course, possible. This way I will be on psych’s radar again and will get treated fairly quickly if it becomes an issue.
She also said ‘it is better to bottle feed and be functioning on drugs than to insist on breast feeding and not functioning at all.’ She has a point.
I really want to breast feed, it is so good for baby and for me. But if I can’t, I can’t. I will come to terms with that, sometime in the next 15 weeks.
So I’m off work for at least the next week, until the possibility of infection is cleared up one way or another. If I do have an infection, then I may be off another week, not because I’ll be contagious, but because I’ll need to take care of myself and the baby.
I’m sure work is thrilled. I know I would be, if I was them…
Somewhere in this crowd is my husband.
Heartburn sucks. Especially at 2am.
Yes, I am depressed. Very depressed.
And I’m not at work.
Yesterday the baby was playing footie. Today? Its studying ballet.
Dear Baby
Will you look at that…only 15 weeks to go! Practically the 3rd Trimester!
Mummy hasn’t had an easy week again. One of her friends lost their baby last week. Their baby was about as far along as you are right now. Mummy was very sad for her friend and a bit worried. But then she realized that you have been kicking her like crazy! And we had two scans last week!
Mummy’s OB (that’s the doctor who specializes in babies, BTW) decided to scan you just for the heck of it during her 24 week appointment last Tuesday. So I got to see your legs (which look very muscular, OB says that’s normal!) and your hands waving at me! And your heart beating.
And, speaking of your heart, mummy and daddy got to go have that scanned on Friday. You see, my darling, because your mummy has diabetes, it can cause your heart to be too large. So around 24 weeks a specialist (called a foetal cardiologist) does a very close in scan and measurement of your heart. So daddy and I got to go see your heart and hear it beat and everything. There is also some additional concern with your heart because your Uncle J was born with a hole in his heart the size of a quarter. But nothing was found in yours! And it measured right on size. 🙂
So, how big are you anyway…well mummy’s book says you weight about 720 g and are about 22.5 cm long. You can hear what I and your daddy say to you, as well as other sounds from outside mummy’s tummy. I knew that, because Daddy was watching Matrix the other day and you were kicking like crazy during the fight scenes! Definitely mine and your daddy’s baby!!
Counting down the days, as always my little love. And buying you some clothes to wear. And daddy got you your first elephant this week!
25 down…15 to go.
Love
Mummy
So one of the women who I have been chatting with on Mumsnet through the Due in June thread had a stillbirth on Friday. She’d been having some severe pain in her bump for a week or two and the doctors were just calling her a worry wart and neurotic. My heart is breaking for her and her family. She was due about a week before I am, so it hit very close to home.
So many people ask me how I can call people I’ve never met my friends. Well, because I care about them. I am crying for my friend at Mumsnet. We’ve spent the last 24ish weeks talking about nausea and heartburn and baby movements. We’ve discussed furniture and labour and birth plans. We’ve laughed at each other’s cravings and worried when one of us didn’t post for a few days. We are friends. Just much friends as people I actually see every day.
And now my friend is grieving. And so are all the women who post on the June thread at Mumsnet.
I mean that US is going to Summer time tonight? We don’t go there until the end of the month.
I only know because someone one on my Facebook friends feed mentioned it.
So why am I always the last to know about these things?
In other news, went baby clothes shopping today. Bought some cute stuff, and some practical stuff. It was fun! Nothing as adorable as little socks and hand mitts and hats!!! Just wish I could predict the weather for June. Impossible to do in this country.
Other than that, just a quiet Saturday with quesadillas for dinner. And hot chocolate pudding for dessert. 🙂