But I’ll say it again;
Constant pain can be gotten used to. Even expected and treated like a friend. An annoying friend, but something that is always there.
Sudden unexpected pain cannot. But it usually passes quickly.
However, sudden unexpected recurring pain can never be gotten used to, nor does it pass quickly.
All day today I have had sudden unexpected recurring pain in my upper left arm. Just sitting, not moving that arm, just surfing the web and BAM pain.
Just for a second. But sharp. Like someone stuck me with something sharp.
And then it’s gone.
And then it’s back.
And then it’s gone.
And then…
And it’s exhausting. It’s mind blurring. It’s debilitating. It’s distracting.
It’s why I wanted to clean my whole downstairs today but only managed to do the dining room a bit of the kitchen.
It’s why I want to pitch to clients and/or join a freelancers site but don’t because I don’t feel I can commit to deadlines.
It’s why my son watches so much TV in the afternoon.
I just want to be a normal, healthy 46 year old.
Wouldn’t that be nice?