Changes

So obviously, my life has changed since having Adam.  I’ve mentioned this before.

But I have been thinking about physical changes lately.

Some of them are small, like the fact that my hands seem to get waterlogged a lot quicker these days.  One round of washing  up and my palms are all wrinkled.  I used to soak in the bathtub for hours and barely be wrinkled.

Or the fact that I get hangnails, which I never used to get.  I think that’s because I use that alcohol rub stuff after nappy changes, since there is no sink in his room.  Could be the reason for the wrinkly hands too, I guess.

Of course, some of them are big.  I have a very long scar just above my pubic bone, for example.  But I like that scar.  It brought my son into the world.

My hips hurt more than they used to.  Also due to my son.

Of course, all of these things are due to my son.

And I revel in every one of them.

And What I Will Miss…

about being pregnant.

I know I’ve said I hate it, and I do.  But there are still a few things I’ll miss:

The feeling of the wiggle worm on the interior.

Knowing that that baby is 100% safe, something I’ll never have once its on the outside.

Seeing my bump move with the baby.  Always makes me laugh out loud.

And really, that’s it!!!

7 days…

Conversations with My Baby

I talk to the baby on the interior.  All the time.

I tell it to hush and calm down when its kicking vigirously.

I’ve given it a tour of its room.

I’ve told it about its pram, which is currently in pieces in boxes.

And I tell it, every day, how much its Daddy and I love it.

The exact same conversations I will have with it once it becomes the baby on the exterior.  Long before it will be able to understand me.

Luckily, Simon thinks its cute that I do this.

Even if he didn’t think it was cute, I would still do it.  But at least he doesn’t think I’m totally bonkers! 🙂

Well, It Finally Happened…

I had to take off my rings.  They still come off and on, but are really tight and uncomfortable.  My claadagh ring will stay in my jewelery box for the duration, my wedding and engagement rings are on the necklace I always wear.  I now clang when I walk. 🙂

Bit of a eye opening moment when my 5 weeks left were reduced in about 3 in the mouthing of the sentence ‘come back in 2 weeks and about 10 days after that we’ll schedule your C Section.’ Gulp.

Has given me a little shove. Finally ordered sheets and the cot bumper (its one for newborns, that is breathable, so it will protect little heads but they can’t suffocate against it).  Amby cradle is on its way.

Still have to finish setting up the baby’s room, in terms of putting things like cotton wool and such on shelves!

Oh and packing the hospital bag.

But I have nothing else planned other than antenatal appointments, antenatal classes and a meeting with the solicitor about wills.

Bring on the baby!!

Simon Asked Me Two Questions This Week

that made me think.

  1. Knowing how much you’re not liking the 3rd trimester, do you appreciate your mum more for going through it?
  2. If you knew 7.5 months ago what you know now, would you still do this?

My first response to #1 was no, I didn’t.  And then I thought about it some more and realized, yeah, maybe I do.  Not because once upon a time she carried me in her tummy.  But because she’s never mentioned it.  Not that I would expect my mum to be moaning about something that happened nearly 41 years ago, but because it gives me hope that I really will forget how huge and uncomfortable and awful I feel once this baby is in my arms.  As unlikely as that seems right now.

As for #2…I honestly don’t know.  On the one hand, I am so in love with this baby already, I can’t wait to meet it and find out who it is.  And I love the feeling of it moving inside of me.  To the extent that I wonder how much I’ll miss that part of being pregnant once I have babe in arms.

On the other hand, I’m exhausted, I hurt, I’m out of balance, walking down the hall from the front room to the bedroom puts me out of breath.  I do not, for one second, regret having a baby.

But I sure am thinking awfully hard about ever doing this again.

What a Difference

a good nights sleep followed by a 2 hour nap after being awake for a few hours can make.  I am think of taking a second nap in a bit.

And this is why I am counting the seconds until maternity leave.  Having a newborn is tiring enough without going into it with weeks and weeks (or in my case, months that go back to before I was pregnant) of bad sleep behind you.

4 more days of work and I am off.  And then I planning on taking my mornings to get things done and my afternoons to rest.

Or vice versa. 🙂

Baby is being very active.  And kicked really hard when its daddy sang silly songs to it yesterday! Simon liked that.

Also having some Braxton-Hicks contractions.  Which don’t hurt, but are kind of distracting and annoying.  Nothing like your entire stomach going rock hard to break your concentration!

And speaking of concentration…somehow managed to send the Board last September’s report rather than the one for May. Um…ooops?  And no one will let me forget it, of course.

Final Ikea Trip Today

Bought some organization type stuff, including a box for toys for the front room.  Now we just need to put it together.

Work is really kicking my ass.  My replacement started Friday, so its non-stop training for the next two weeks.  Have you ever tried to dump 4.5 years of knowlege into someone’s head in two weeks?  Yeah, not going to be fun.

Baby is kicking and squirming constantly.  Its nice!

Tuesday is our first antenatal class.  I hope its useful.

And that’s  your Saturday afternoon brain dump.